My New Home

There has been a delay in posting but I wanted to get something up before I left for Kelli's Wedding.

This is my new home. For how long I do not know...

For those of you that do not know this is gorgeous Tacoma, WA.

More posts to come!!

I took Another path today

It's always bizarre when you realize, in that exact moment, that a decison you made effects your life like dominoes. That because you chose to go in one direction you will never know completely what would have happened and how it would have played out in the other. I made a choice today that was more based, no almost 100% based on a gut feeling and was followed by reason after the fact. I was given many chances to go back and forget I had ever said anything and yet I continued. I know I took the right path today and yet I have no idea where I am going.

So I'm Crazy but who isn't at 24!

These last two weeks have been a huge eye opener for me. I have once again been forced to re-evaluate my life. Take a really close look at myself and what I am doing. I said a phrase/ statement last night that scared me. "What if I lose my job, my job is who I am" Why do we do that? why do we feel the need to let our livlihood take so much control. Our job is part of who we are it is not all of us. I want to be happy and I want to figure out what that is on my own. I am in complete control of my life and how I want it to be. I don't have any clue where I want to be or really what exactly I want to be doing. I would like interior design to be part of it because it does make me happy. How it fits in right now, I do not know.

I haven't been the best sister, daughter, grandaughter or niece of late but I'm done feeling guilty about it. I do not want to lose any of those relationships. I want to make them better but I cant do it alone and I shouldn't feel like I have to. I give up even trying because I feel like I have to. One shouldnt feel like they have to, they should want to. I know this may not be true but that's how it feels. There are exceptions to this of course and some people in my life that try really hard to keep my head above water and I apprecitate that more then they know.

I have so many interests that its hard to focus on one at a time. I have a lot to figure out and I will get there one step at a time as cheesy as that is to say. I'm not trying to hurt anyone with this just needed to get it out, so that I can begin to work on myself. Thank you

A First Timer

My entire family blogs and it never really interested me. I would read theirs and enjoy them but never thought I should do one until now. What changed my mind? Who knows really, except for the fact that I stopped taking it so seriously and thinking that it had to be some profound thought from me. I can write what is on my mind and share my life without the pressure of it having to be perfect. I guess I also came around to the thought that it could aid me in staying in touch with my family, organize my life (thoughts and goals) and share/define my point of view in the world. Ambitious, right? Anyway, here goes nothing....